an interesting event that will never happen to me

okay.there's this guy..let's call him,lirry okay?
and his girlfriend,let's call her jaz
(btw,lirry and jaz are my real tumblr friends,just to state that this statement doesn't refer to anyone unless you think it's you)


scene 1
okay.i hung out with lirry some weeks earlier and jaz came.so he introduced me to jaz.so i said hi and then blablabla.didn't say that much.and then me and the gang went to buy a drink?i don't remember..

so then lirry came to me saying stuff like 'i don't know how to connect with her,it's weird when it's the both of us,'

shit like that,so i said things like 'dude,go for it,now she's yours,don't let her go.just walk home with her!'

and he did.

so i asked my friends'why the hell did he ask me all that stuff?'

so they said 'obvious;y he trusts you,dude'

okay.fine

scene 2
okay,i was walking on my school corridor.i call it "runway". and i saw jaz.so i kinda smiled at her,you know,because obviously she knew me..and she didn't even look at me.she like looked down and just walked away.

okay,fine

scene 3
i went to our school's toilet to..you know,business deal..

and i saw some kids from jaz's form kinda staring and whispering at me..

so i said 'hmm.i think jaz doesn't like me to be friends with lirry ' and i told my gang about the "runway" incident

okay,fine

scene 4
okay.this happened today

i was walking with two of my gang and lirry was standing behind some pillar?

i smiled at him..but he didn't even look at me .i guess because he was so busy cursing some kid with his friend


scene 5


once again,i passed lirry on my way to recess.he looked at me.and i smiled but

that goddamn motherfucker didn't even look at me.he just looked away and start walking.

fuck!

now i'm really convinced his girlfriend doesn't want me to be friends with him



last but definitely not least


scene 6


so after i finished tuition i went to eat some durian and rambutan and the shoplady gave us so many FREE mangoes!it's like,okay,the apples in our fridge is not half finished and  now we have to eat this?

fine,whatever.

okay,so when i reached home,i was laying on the floor and i checked my phone,there's a message from my friend..let's call her amir..

so she said 'no,lirry is not angry or WHATSOEVER with you.he even asked about you and he asked your number when i chatted with him earlier.u don't mind me giving him your number right?'

so....i asked amir 'r u sure,did you told him about my theory about jaz?'

and she said'no.' and then i can't remember what amir said

so ..


the end


okay,i don't even know what to think of at this moment..i just want to have one great day,okay..

ughh.fine,whatever.it's not like anyone is reading this anyway.

so,guess what??

this dude.

radhi O.A. freaking G!!

oh,yeah.he came to my school.

so..the thing is.this week,,my school is doing the anti-drug week..

and yeah..he used to be an addict..and married...his wife wants divorce for something i didn't even know until he came to my school///anyway,he sang a few of his songs..i'll give the real songs,since i didn't bring a camera when he sing it live.

good right?oh..i forgot.not all of you are malaysian..whatever..just listen to the melody.

btw,i shook his hand,asked for his autograph and then he use my pen to signed other more autograph!

YEY ME!!!

al-fatihah to my friend

so..i went to school kinda ,late today and a friend of mine approached me..she said
'do you remember nadia syafika binti kamal from middle school?'
'....yeah,why'
'she died'
'what?!how did you know?'
'her brother text me earlier'
'when did she died?'
'6.30am this morning ..she had breathing difficulties'
...(our conversation stops for a while)....
'you know what,a couple of days earlier,i was going through our class photo and when i saw her picture,i thought..hm,,what happened to this girl.r u paying her family a visit?
'yeah,maybe'
okay,anything text me,i wanna go too'
'okay'




so there you go guys..
she was my friend,maybe not close,yet a good friend.
she's always smiling and she had the cutest little chinese-like eyes.
hmm..it made me wonder..

we really don't know what's gonna happen in the future.if i knew that the last time i would see her was the last time ever..god,i would hug her and hold her so tight..
but then again,i don't know.we will never know.
never would i thought that my brother is going to japan,my parents divorced,my brother beated by my dad.
never in a million years i thought that these things would happened to me.
and she was the same age like me.15..that's not very long..i can't help but think,another mother lost her child,another brother lost her sister,and another teenager lost her friend.

so,there you go.
make life better.
you would never know if it would be the last.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
al-fatihah to my friend
nadia syafika binti kamal
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

new dude i know

note to my friends:
no,i don't like him.i just want to share my story about him to you guys.

okay,, let me tell you how i met him.


i went for a camping for 2 days one night at melaka.blablabla..he was in my group and our leader.
anyway. im the one who goes with the flow.so if youre awkward with me,then imma be awkward with you.but he wasnt awkward at all.he's funny and kindof a good guy.so now,im friends with him

so today at school..

i finished school at 1.10pm and me and my two friends stayed back to do our oral.so we did the oral.then we went back to the canteen to finish our civics folio.and he was there.so when my friends bought some foods,i struck a conversation with him..he's the one who approached me.that was the second time that day.the first one was when i accompany my friend to call her father.
so we chatted about studies and stuffs..nothing in particular..just sarcasm and all,well.that's how i am around guys.if i like them then i wouldn't stop smilling.if they are considered as friends,then i can give sarcastic comments and not worry about the feed back.so we ended our chat and i bought some nuggets

and then at 4 something o'clock..he came to my table(which im sitting with my friends)and then he started to "kinda" help me with math which is the most problematic subject ever.turns out..he's excellent in math..in PMR,he got 1 a and the other 7 is like b or c.the a+ was math.so he was like im good at math but kinda bad in everything else..and then ..i don't remember how this conversation started.but we started to talk about his girlfriend..
turns out.he started to like her at age 8.he said he didn't know why he like her,he just does.
at age 14.he became his girlfriend,but not after years of asking and flirting..so now,their 2 years anniversary is coming up in june.what im trying to say is..

having a dude liking you for 9 years.9 freaking years!!!
and you know the sweetest thing is..he's kind of guy who's rough and make jokes that hurt.but when he talk about her,,he becomes like so sensitive and so girly and so just..you know.the eyes kinda change when he talks about her..i can really see he really likes her..i mean..again.9 years!..so i told him.

'you're the kind of guy who's personality change according to the topic'..and i told him 'you blush when you talk about her'.in my heart,i said 'wo..she's really a lucky girl.'

so the talking went on and on and on and on and without me realising it.my homeworks's not even half finish and i've been talking to him for like 4 hours??!!now im messing with the teachers.

in conclusion,

i just wish..
just wish,
that somewhere,somebody,
feels the same way about me.

there was this one guy who said he liked me for 3 years but now,he can;t even look at me.so..i don't know
im just hoping

oh,btw.i always dream like when i walk home alone in the drizzling rain,somebody would walk beside me  .
and he's the first guy ever did that..haha..

ahh..i hope my time to be the girl somebody loves will come.