sbs daejun

SUPER JUNIOR IS HOT!!!
this is proof

the guy that i like is the guy that the camera gives close-up when he flips his hair.
the leader is the one who gets hugged by the dude wearing glasses.
the guy wearing robe is siwon,sorry,he can't give opinion in what he's wearing
the youngest is the one who slides to the floor.
the guy wearing glasses is the most active in social networking.
the one wearing high neck shirt has is the main vocalist.
the guy who sings after the guy who i like is expert in martial arts
3 guys who dance at the music part is the best at dancing except for the guy on the left.the guy on the left is the youngest
and i'll put pictures of the tree guys who cant make it

he is doing national service(army) because he had a case .1)drunk driving.2)fighting in a club

the dude who leave because wanted to pursue acting

the guy who left because he said he wasn't treated fairly and went back to his hometown,china.


and you know,super junior shot a video in my country,malaysia...

see to believe

blablabla

have you ever feel like..i don't know,when you're trying to focus something really important..automatically your head starts singing stupid songs that first you thought was annoying but now you really dig it?

haha,i feel the same way.it doesn't help when you're trying to read important history facts for your annually test either

but the best is..that song come to our head becoz it sense our anxiety and stress..it come as a function.function for us to release all the stress and sit back and relax for a while..that's why i never sigh when i couldn't remember the key part.becoz i know..that song will always come and help me..

super junior

i tried writing this as my first post but i was pissed off at someone at that time..imma tell ya bout my fav band

instead of copy paste from the wikipedia,,i'll tell you why they are the best..
1.they have the best leader ever(leeteuk).like really,he have go all things with the other members (donghae dad passed away,kangin drunk driving,kibum leaving to pursue acting,hankyung leaving and suing their company,and the recent incident at GDA awards.
2.GDA awards.okay,the award is based on 3 things.
 a.asian popularity
 b.album sales
 c.popularity(voting)
that three will be combined and the winner is announced
 you know what happened?snsd(girls generation) won(sorry cant insert pictures coz the internet sucks)
if u go to anywhere in asia..you will found out the super junior is WAY more popular than snsd..really,i have proof.whoever wants em,post a comment.and ill show it..about the album sales,the inside guys counted 3 snsd albums(oh,hoot,run devil run) when super junior..they only counted the bonamana sales.unfair much?and the voting..shinee has the most vote followed by super junior and then snsd.
REALLY???fuck GDA.i know in my heart they are the winner and there is nothing more important in that.you can check out heechul,leeteuk and eunhyuk twitter,,they post their sorry after the gda incident.why none of us know nothing bout this?
korea has banned this subject from being spoke about..what happen was,super junior was sure to win..the camera was focused at them when they are announcing,and the camera quickly focus to snsd when their name was not announced(what im trying to say,,EVERYBODY know super junior is gonna win)
leeteuk(leader) was informed earlier that they gonna have to give the awrd to snsd or they have to cancel their concert..what would U do?
3.hankyung leave becoz he said he wasnt treated properly by the members.if u read allkpop.com you'll know about the vid he made.
4.kangin's drunk driving..he was given the option to go to jail or go to NS early.
5.leeteuk wish were he wanted the 13 member super junior to perform on stage once again before he went to NS.

regardless of what happened..i swear with all my heart.Super Junior is the best group out there.you can go to youtube right now and search super junior playlist.just make sure u pick the right one.
their songs,,have none flaw.zero.0.seriously,you maybe from the states or malaysia and cant understand korean,but listen to the beat of the song and their sincerity througout the songs.u'll be touched..okay,right now,im recomending one of their songs..
super junior k.r.y.-she's the one..enjoy..

Donghae & Ryeowook (Super Junior) - Just Like Now (It's Okay Daddy's Dau...

the parent trap

my dad is ...blablabla.

he started talking bout how he always be the second one to know anything and he felt like his house is like a pitsop or something(amazing race anyone?)
you know what?i dont think he understand that enough is enough or less is more.really,who does like it when everyone said that they are unhappy about how you have been treating them.

what about me??

i wish i could be like my younger brother..we (us both)went through that torture segment and 15 minutes later he ask me.'so,what did dad said earlier?'and i was like,'what??ohmygosh.i wish i was you.

at the end of the day,i cant really point out his flaws because he is my father and it will be kinda disrespectful,right?but then..i am really stressed out to hear EVERYTHING  and i dont wanna be the sponge anymore..who wants to?

:(

weight loss challenge

haha..bring me new year resolutions!!!
lately,i didn't feel sexy and comfortable with my body anymore.i've always been the kind of girl who's not ashamed to have beyonce booties and megan fox titties..but..why do i feel fat suddenly?is it my friend,the hormone?or is it just my mind?so,i've been cutting some foods from my plate,i THOUGHT of jogging and i beg for my mother to put me in those corset

dude!it;s tight i'll tell ya!!you literally cant sit down without your posture perfectly straight.and becoz my boobs are big,they were kinda lifted ..so weird,it's like suddenly i have huge boobs under my shoulders..but,if that is what i gotta do to look good,i'll do it.
i've tried so much diet and exercise..but it just bores me.i can't understand beyonce.she said she does squats and lunges

BORING!!all you do is that and nothing else for 30 minutes..sure your butt will look great.but i wasn't built with long determination...in the mean time,i'll stick to my corset

so,i've been reviewing my blog and i decided that it wasn't good enough.call me insecure but hey anybody who say they're not are totally bullshitting.
hmm,maybe i'll start post some pictures too..it's nice to give yourself review,makes you feel humbled because you know you're not perfect.
bahahahahaha

i totally thought nobody as reading my blog until a little birdie(thanks,big bro) taught me how to see the stats..nevertheless,i as quite proud of myself.
arghh..i sound like an old virgin knitting while telling stories to her cat.

blablabla,longstory short..

(see on the next post)

SAY WHAT??

14th december 2010.

150cm/4"11 feet.
me:what???????
oh well,at least im taller than ******a.she said her height is not even 150cm.haha,im a bad friend.but seriously?at least kourtney(kardashian) is 5 feet...i wanna be taller,please!

up,up and away

she's not going to libya.i know.reason:they are sleeping right next to each other after only two days im sleeping with mama.no siree.she will not go to libya becoz if she cant stand it for two days,how the hell she stand it for two years?!okay,if she did go to libya,i swear to give my identity in my blog.but i SERIOUSLY doubt it

not to be shared

so,i found mamas pictures in uncle jepps phone.and i bluetoothed it to mine.just to remind me of what not to do .especially when you are a muslim and not married.i know our familys not religious and all,but does she have to go that far?i know she's in love.but the things she is doing with him is just wrong.i dont know wether i should be happy or what for her .it sucks!i mean,having this part of your life unsharable to ANYONE.i dont want to embarass her,but if i keep it all inside,ill explode.i pray for her every night so that shell be blessed.so is this blessing?i have not lose faith in allah,i just lost my faith with her

no lies

based on true story.
she was dragged on the street by her sister;angry for she had been scolded for something she didnt know.she cried and cried.and i wonder what would happen to her.that poor little child.i wonder..but i couldnt help her.it kills me coz i cant defend her or at least..i dont know.something.i couldnt stand her getting teary-eye bcoz of some other individuals who just cant understand.understand what it feels like being her.i dont know if i understand.but ive been there.crying and wanting for something that i cant help or change.theres an old saying 'whats life?just do it.'so i wonder..what is LIFE??
oh god,help me to calm my heart.help me to stop thinking about what couldve happen and what shouldve happen.help me..god

bruno mars!i want you!

when i see your face,theres not  a thing that i would change,coz girl youre amazing,just the way you are.

can i get a man to sing it for me,like right now.please?really,come on!how the hell hard is it,right?yeah,sure im not  YOUR type of beautiful..but,every girl deserve their own bruno mars,right?sometimes i am cute and beautiful(blablabla)but then,why doesnt ANYONE realize that?there is someone who realize(my dad),but that was the FIRST and LAST anybody said something like 'oh,you look beautiful right now'.REALLY?my DAD?i want somebody else,someone who's not related to me..a MAN maybe?really,is that too much?

THE talk with dearest father

no,not that sex talk that you perv are thinking..its my future here okay?
i had the longest talk about my future with my dad.(well,it was a short one,but you get what i mean ,right?)he did say some rrrreally smart things.saying that he doesn't want me to add the pressure by comparing myself and that i have a different future.he also said that my brother has different experience than me.i mean,being in a normal school,seeing all those been-there-done-that situation.
you know what?he is ABSOLUTELY right,he also said you just try to take the best out of you,but then i wonder.what if my best is NOT enough?
oh yeah,btw..i talk to my father about boys..not my mom.he gave the weirdest advice to date.which is:(note to self=never follow it if you REALLY like the boy)just let him buy you everything and if he's still with you then,he's a keeper.
haha.weird but im just not that kind of girl.maybe ill do it to a guy just for fun or if the dude really deserve it.haha.idk

Seriously??!!

like,really.who the hell do you think you are?okay,my mums husband use sarcasm to take me down!!and guess what?my mum doesnt do anything to stop him.guess again....she uses sarcasm to me tooo!!!!!!say what?!!!

 

the story is,i was planning to make a(repeated) A smothie..but my greedy brother convinced everybody to eat their part of yogurt(the yogurt i was planning to use for my yogurt).so ,what was left is only A bottle of yogurt.wait,im not even sure you can call it a bottle.ARGHH!WHATEVA!!

anyway,he said to mum,"she wants to do it for herself only!!".which is totally untrue considering they're the one eating the yogurts when  i told them i wanted to use it for the yogurt!right?!!i was washing the dishes at that time and i immediately make a face when he said that.and then my mum said "S'OKAY,let me do the dishes."fuck him!!!
and then when im sitting,she said something like "we cant count on her".and then i was like,'what?!!!aren't you the one who supposed to protect and defend me i  some way???!!!!
chicken shiznits!!!

Dear Sweet Mummy

Dear Mum,

I want you to know
I REALLY REALLY love you
I dont want to hold on to you
But i also dont want to let you go
MUMMY,I LOVE YOU.
I sleep every night,thinking and praying
For you.

I LOVE YOU,MUM                    
                                          
                                          Sincerely,
                                        Your Daughter

Dear Sweet Mummy

soo..my mum got a job in/at libya..welll,,i suprised myself by saying YES.why do u ask...?hmmm..i am in a state of point that if my mum wasn't around,i know i WILL be fine.all that i've been through,,really.having my mother living in another country for 2 years really seems like nothing.will i regret saying yes?

i dont know

but she told me about it,and i can see she's really excited about it.who am i to tell her not to do what she loves?
oh yeah,btw.her husband didnt approve and totally make a face when she mentioned it to him

really part 3!!!!

wth is wrong with my mum?she asked me to help her.i lift the rice cooker lid and she said it's not done yet.and then i dont  kno wtd.so i just kinda stand there bcoz my brothers were busy doing their stuff and im too cool to care.and then she said,put the rice on the plates.so i lift the lid of the rice cooker AGAIN and then she started screaming at me saying its all ready in front!!might as well call me bitch,dont u think?and then i put the rice on the plates .i was taking the prawns in front of her and doing my face..she said,dont do that face right now.u know what??i dont even care anymore..okkay.how the hell can she treat her 'husband' and her children(me) differently..the little thing on my head start to doubt whether she really love me or not.forget it!i dont even sure she like me.

really part 2?!!!

owkey..theres this guy named faizol..chatiing eith me on facebook.first of all,i dont kno him and he doesnt have a profile picture.i think hes a dude from smk kosas,but again.i dont know hhim..first he said have i eaten,and i said no.and then he said 'do u want to be my gf'?'.
like,really??!!!haha,am i that interesting.wow,now im flattering myself..whateva!!
oh,cant wait to see hp and deathly hallows part 1.i think its gonna end when harry,hmione and ron was at xeno's house or when dobby tried to save them before reaching shell cottage.mybe the part two will start off with harry digging dobby's grave..

really??!!!

1.my mom's 'husband' put his hand comfortably on my mum's breast without hesitation in front of my younger brother and me
2.my mother wears this skimpy night mini-mini dress and doesnt wear a bra and then snuggle with him under the sheets
3.sometimes they disappear ,,and out of nowhere,my mom magically had a change of clothes.
4.right now,hes hugging her,my moms foot twinning on him.watching the gladiator,the most orgasm-feeling i ever seen.i mean,russell crowe obviously hot,at that time of course,and i dig that kind of weird,raging fighter kind of thing.

argghhh//now im rambling!!!im pissed off because i just can forget how relaxed and cool they are with the fact they r not legally married but have done it.urghh!i cant even think when im like,imagining they r doing it.and guess what,i found a series of pictures  showing ""couples position""..what!!!now im really mad!

busy,busy

hmmm.i dont know.im not busy.the title just in some way,spoke to me.
i told adriana everything and anything.or like tyra would say "h to t,head to toe,baby!""
btw,she got a few problems up her sleeve too
yeah,yrah.boys..boys..boys..hmm,,u know iman said hell jump from my apartment to show that he really is sorry..crazy dude.thank god i didnt date him,,ill be doomed,no offonse to guys out there,but somehow all the guys i knew,is a jerk in some kind of way.say im picky or a bitch.its the truth.im not gonna lie just to please anyone.thats just me,dont like it,leave.oh,i maybe have one regular 'reader ' to my blog which is adriana.i told faz too but i dont think she has the time.will i ever find HIM?hmmm..whoever u r,better hurry up and find me!

oopppsss

oh,no.i think my brother knows i have a blog..
okay..to ilman..kalau hang bc ni..please stop.this is my personal stuff and my writing that i dont wanna share with you.this is just me expressing my feelings.if u do wanna read it,then keep it silent,act as like u never heard of blogspot.if u ever in any way give anybody a hint tjat i have a blog,i WILL cut your throat..please respect me and my stuff.okay,love you big bro

sincerely,
ilyana

my new crush

my ryeowook new song

Nowadays I'm confused about you and even more about myself, are we friends or dating
When we're walking and also watching movie I have a deep secret to tell you
We're friends which closer than lovers
But what should I do, I love you babe
*Suddenly everything of you, I fond of everything of you
I will slowly and slowly become closer
I like everything about you
I don't have to say you're my one love, Please stay with me and promise me
Forever*
I want to confess all of my heart like a man
You'd better catch my heart, you'd better know my heart baby
*
There's no friendship between boys and girls, I didn't believe it back that then
No, even though we are lovers we are still being good friends.
I will listen to you (I will listen to you)
More than the word 'I love you' we're still, we're feeling sweet.
A little bit more starting from today
I like everything about you
Your hands I took, I won't let you go
I will say I love you instead
Forever

read!!

that dude said
1.please give me one more chance
2.i want to wish happy holidays to u n and your family,n i apologize for my doings,i hope u give me a chance.bye
3.please ...reply it
4.please reply
5.i want to say im sorry to u,i promise to not to do it again,please give me one more chance..i dont want u to hate me bcoz i have a thing for u.please
6.bcoz i dont  know u that much,n i think ure a girl that i can trust..n i think i love u
7.please,forgive me
8.please forgive me,u can punish me..promise ull forgive me
9.hmmm..can u give a reson why im unforgivable?id do anything for u
10.i promise u,i wont do it again,id do anything(17.nov.2010,01:37pm)

my brain said
1.no!
2.okay..
3.(i didnt reply)
4.(didnt reply)
5.why should i forgive u?
6.(didnt reply for alooooong time)
7.he called me
8.wtf>?!!
9.the thing is..u can ask any woman.if u ask them to follow u on your first meeting to meet your ex to show that uve move on..they would do the same thing i did.believe me
10.didnt reply

crazy,crazy,crazy dude.oh yeah,btw.i already have a new dude

guys r lame

theres this guy.my best friends ex.yeah,i know its wrong and all..but what to do.i cant help it.today at 2 we're supposed to meet and go to ts,bb and pavillion.but last night at 1am,he said that he want m to accompany him to meet his ex that work there.and i was like.wtf???!!!and then i said,i want to sleep.
at 10 today,after i called my mom,dad najwa and fazlia i decided to not follow him,that doucebag!!!
he then called only like a million times..fazlia and najwa talked to him and they said(according to me),i dont wanna see him and i don want him to message me ever again!!!and he doesnt get it!!!he kept calling and calling.lastly i talked to him i said,i dont wanna see him.and lastly i text him and said,please stop messaging me and his actions r making me more dislike him..haha,so engrish!!!so thats it..story of my life

he just text me saying he love me and shit..sorry,i dont buy it!!one other reason is bcoz he said he want me to show to his ex that im his gf.for god sake,the girl is 18 and MARRIED!!!!crazy much..so,i vow to never ever ever text him or msj him ever again.

the exorcist

im watching the exorcist right now..it makes me wonder,,if i got possessed,,how will i see the world?i hate this kind of shit!maybe im just testing if im still afraid to see GHOST stories.okay,now it really is AMAZING.the father dude practically wrestles with reagan and ask the ghost to come into him..,and it did!!wow,,dgr ckp gile

im wondering if i ever should make?do?whatever a blog..what if my parents knew and my frens read this.
u kno what?screw everything!i dont give a damn to anyone anymore.im kinda hating everything at the moment.
i just wonder,when my mom married him 'legally',,why didnt she tell me earlier,didnt she believe me.im furious not bcoz she didnt tell me she got married,but kinda of HOW she told me.it hurts so bad..

i secretly think the dude who creates blog because he wants to whine,,and we're just following him

life as i see it

so..nothing new..
my mom secretly marries another man in thailand.my dad practically stole my money,my brother graduates from his perfect life and my younger brother stole MY 10 ringgit.SWEET!now i san sleep happily.
isnt life suppose to be .i dont know?exciting..is your parents exciting.no!